6 months and 1 month and 9 days for dad and 1 year 3days for Chris. Time does travel quickly. I am so missing you. I know exactly what you meant by your letter Vic posted from your computer. We talked about some of it. I did try to call you an hour before Chris died and you couldn't answer. I remember exactly what you said when you did call and I said oh Patrick you just missed her. You said that's ok I got to see her when I was there at Christmas time. Oh how proud you and dad must be that you had so many people to memorialize you. If you only knew then how loved you were. I am sorry I am having a hard time writing this....and I didn't get to write at how nice dad's services were. It's ashame the weather was so wicked. How cool was it that 8 of dad's 9 grandchildren were there! You guys were beaming at that I am sure. Seeing Kate and Marlana and Tai, Al .... Oh Patrick it's so hard having all of you gone. Gone from here but not forgotten...look how this web site has grown. Dad even has one. How cool is that? I went to a mass at a church in Haddon Heights that Richard had said for you. I talked to the priest after and he said he was going to do a mass for dad to. Didn't say when but I got 2 really cool mass cards from my friends...one on my b-day and one on fathers day. Awww man Mothers Day is coming...Patsy Cline? and father's day follows....Al Jolson? Kate gave us her news...I thought of doing that but am glad now that I didn't. That was the last time you me dad and Vic had a picture taken together wasn't it? I started this the other day so I could just hit and send and couldn't do it. Couldn't finish all my thoughts...Missing you guys to to much. Love You.....Fran

I Found This Letter On Patrick's Hard Drive

Created - Wednesday, January 26, 2005 8:57:01 PM
Modified - Friday, February 18, 2005 4:37:40 PM


Even though it comes as no surprise to me, this news of her death, I can't help but think that I need to be there to be with her family, my family. When I am gone will it matter who's at the proceedings to commemorate my life? What if all I really did during my life really didn't matter? What if no one really cared about my passing? I can go to all of the old places where I use to spend my time and they'd be happy to see me in life, but would they go out of their way to see me at my final resting place?
Are there really those that suffer their entire lives worrying about the end?
The end. It seems so simple when I think about it. You live, you learn, you suffer, you laugh a little. Then you check out.
Simple.
Why do all of the opposing forces of nature want to make it last in another realm? What do these beliefs really do to life? Point in turn, what do they do to someone's death?
Christine was a Jehovah's Witness. Is there some sort of ritual they do for those who pass on? I am ignorant to it if they do.
Maybe this is a sign of things to come for me as well. Losing sight of my true self. Spending countless days in bed with nothing left to live for - crazy.
I need to write more often just so that I get these ideas onto paper - - maybe I'll be able to get a fix on what's been ailing me emotionally.
I do not need more interruptions. Someone to talk to would be nice though.
It's Saturday morning and I can't fall asleep. Not really sure what it is exactly, but there's something going on with my body that isn't quite right.
No one in Philly is returning my calls. HMMMM.
It's now 5 days later = = = = and CHRISTINE has died. Today at 1pm (AST). I called right when it happened - my other sister had her cell phone with herin the room. No one was able to contact
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How many times will I have the chance to travel down this road before I am tthe one that people are commemorating?
January 31st is a date I shall never forget. The oldest sibling died. Not an easy death either. Alzheimers is awful.
Listening to Patsy Cline, cuz it reminds me of my mother. Who was also good friends with Christine.
Supposedly HIRED by the board of the Mat-Su Valley to be a substitute...
HMMMM....
No offers yet - guess I was too High maintenance for 'em...
woah.
crazy people.
Crazy Valley people.
Better get connected today.
yup.
Continuing on the connected thing - looks like I am slightly connected, but connections have consequences. Sometimes the stakes are high. Sometimes lives are involved. Too many times emotions are involved. Stay uninvolved??

DAD

Well,sorry I didn't write yesterday but I was in Florida waiting for dad's ashes to be completed. I just got home. Patrick, I know you must must have aggravated mom in some way and she had to call dad to come handle it! Tai came to Florida and we went to lunch and memorialized Christine's 1 year death anniversary on the 31st. I just cannot believe that Dad passed on January 23rd and we memorialized Christine on the 31st and now remembering that Feb 4 is 5 months that you left. The only thing that consoled me as I held dad's hand while he passed was knowing mom,christine and you where there to hold the other hand and show him the way into heaven. Dad said he wanted a beautiful memorial service like you had so Vic and I are trying to do that. It happens this Saturday. I'll have to get back to you and let you know how things go. I have to stop now....I love you guys