Starting The New Year

Well I just couldn't bring myself to say Happy New Year or even write on New Years Day. I had really felt your not being here especially on that day. Twelve years. Twelve Years ago that day we got the knock on the door that mom had passed away. Now today is 4 months that I got the knock on the door to say you went to be with her. In just three weeks on the 31st it will be the 1 year anniversary that you had called to say your final goodbye to our sister and missed her by about four minutes.
You said that was okay because you got to see her just a few weeks before at Christmas on your visit and you talked to her then. Now Vic and I are faced with the fact that dad's health has deteriorated quickly and he is now on hospice and is done with chemo. So the old Year ended and The New Year is starting the way it did last year. Now you know why I can't bring myself to say Happy New Year. I really felt your absence when you didn't call on that night at midnight or the next day to see how I was holding up. That was one thing I could always count on. You boys and dad calling me to see if I was okay and how I was holding up on that day. You guys never let me down. I really felt it this year. It also brought to mind how close we all really were as a family. I could alway's count on my brothers to call on 4 days of the year. My birthday,Mom's birthday,Christmas Day and New years Day. No matter where you guys where living. We were always just a call away. Well Patrick I didn't make any new resolutions this year. I decided to keep things the way they were to keep our family precious and close and keep our traditions as a family alive as long as we have them here with us. I miss you and I Love You...Fran